My motivation has escaped me. I'm feeling defeated and as though I'm so behind on many things. I've been this way for a couple of months now but I chose to keep going in spite of. In my quest to keep journeying on, I find myself also just going through the motions and not necessarily , all out balls to the wall as I would normally do. I really can't put my finger on what has gotten me to this point but despite the reasoning I'm here. As a result of my lack of energy and enthusiam for not only training, but everything else in my life. I have decided to take a break from everything. I've taken a break from extreme dieting, I've taken a break from training (except for with my trainer 1x per week), and I've had to put things into perspective. Sometimes you really have to back up and take a step back to try to regain and regather yourself...not just physically, but also mentally. Everyone has times where they experience a bit of exhaustion, or a time where things seem to be clouded and they have lost their direction. I am no different. Often times the ones who are considered the strongest by others are usually in need of someone to impart fuel and wisdom into them also. You get to a point where you've given so much for so long to others that you feel empty yourself. That's where I am right now. Feeling out of sorts, tired, and empty.
Sometimes it's hard for us to show that vulnerability, or weakness to others because they expect continual strength. Today I decided to show my weakness to also encourage others that have and are experiencing the same lack of (____ whatever your LACK is). Trouble doesn't last always and it will eventually get better.
So, today I find myself releasing those guilty feelings and just understanding that I don't have to be as perfect as want people to believe that I am. I can show my real human emotions and allow myself to rest and breath for a minute. Absolutely no one is perfect...