Happy #takemebacktuesday beauties!!! Have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror, or captured a photo of yourself where you thought you looked fat but now you'd give anythingto go back to that? Well, this for me was one of those times. In these pics, I felt really fat. I was working out every day and eating clean but for some reason I looked fat in my own mind. No one ever knew what I was dealing with during this time. People looked at me and admired my body, but I looked at me and thought I was so fat. Many of our childhood experiences give us a morphed view of how we look at ourselves, how we carry ourselves, and our selfesteem. If you don't have a healthy self esteem, no amount of compliments, or praise you get for your body will ever change the morphed view you have of yourself. It's a disorder. It's called body dysmorphia disorder and it's a real thing. BDD usually starts during adolescence & affects approximately 1.7% to 2.4% of the population with equal distribution among both men and women. I remember the very moment my weight became an issue for me. I was a more shapely and athletic girl than most of the girls at school. When I started to develop hips and butt, my stepfather jokingly told my mom that they should chain me to a tree outside in the Las Vegas heat, feed my bread and water once a day to get me to lose weight. I never developed a negative body image until then. We should be mindful of the things we say to our impressionable young women. He thought it was funny but those words crushed my world and I've had to struggle to accept who I see in the mirror daily. You're the first to hear that I've suffered from BDD since I was 13 yrs old. Needless to say, I've put the work in so you'd never know. Healing starts when you DECIDE. You never know what people are dealing with, right???